Negativity Surrounds Me

Finally!

Months (or was it years?) of reasoning out why I need a netbook came to a halt last week, as we've decided to get me a pretty nifty li'l lappie (and it's a dainty pink!)

I was so excited as I think of the things I'll be writing and photos I will be posting. I keep smiling to myself as I draft and hang on to the train of thoughts which I think were good for my blogging articles. But, alas! more than a week had passed and all I did was surf surf and surf the net for online shopping, social networks, games, live streaming, download movies and none of the writing or blogging stuff!

Darn! I am too lazy to even type a single article, much more to keep a personal blogging site! (just a waste of cyber space) I think I am kidding myself when I said that I will be using online blogging as a therapeutic way to release all tensions and negativity that is all around me. The real therapy I have in mind is shopping! Yes, retail therapy! As it has always been -- it doesn't matter if it's in the mall or in a virtual space -- as long as I get to buy stuff I like! I know this is bad for my wallet's health but for the time being, this is my way of calming, healing and getting rid of the bad energies that is so strongly hovering above me and is waiting for me to breakdown before it eats me up alive!

In time, I will be able to keep my shopaholic tendencies to a minimum, but for now, let me have my own therapeutic way of dealing  and coping in  this big bad world.

This is what illustrates how I am feeling the past few days.. gloomy, dark, lost, however you might want to interpret the photo.. it's such a creepy feeling that I need to dislodge, and fast!!

PS: I sure am sorry for all this negativity I am releasing in the cyber world. Bear with me for a li'l while. I am hoping to be a li'l cheery and bright SOON..


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xo,

Rhia

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Nostalgia

I've been browsing my Friendster Blog (to re-read the entries I've typed in and also because I am feeling kinda senti!) when I chanced upon this entry last December '06.. I still feel this way even if it's more than a year since graduating from college.

Read on..

WARNING: Not for the faint hearted-- too serious to handle!!

Gosh, i can't believe i'm working now... it's like only yesterday that we are loitering around PLM's campus and discussing our projects or creating a plot or even 'squeezing ourselves like a lemon' just so we could produce an answer to the brain-draining and nose-bleeding crisis of pr.. hehehe..

but now, i'm here in an airconditioned room, in front of a computer and should be sending emails to customers, but is actually typing this article for a personal blog. teehee ^_^

i miss all the times wherein we would just sit under one shed or on the grass and looking (and scrutinizing) everything and everyone we see.. sharing stories, giggling and just having fun... as if nothing's the matter.. and we're not beating every subject's deadlines!!

it's just now that it's sinking into my system that college life's over.. the virtual reality had passed, i'm now playing in the real game called -- LIFE!

now i'm telling myself, in college when we fail an exam or recitation, we can always make it up next time. but in this reality game, we can never have the same exact scenario, there'll be no next time-- we can only have experiences gained and lessons learned..

but no matter what, i know i have my family and friends to help me hurdle the obstacles that'll come my way, who'll slow me down when i'm running too fast and who'll pick me up when i stumble..

"may ganung factor??.. nagdadrama!!"

This entry transcends me through time! I know, we (my closest college friends) make it a point to
meet every weekends or at least twice a month.. but still it's very different from what it used to
be way back in college -where we have everyday of our college life to talk, laugh at goof around- today, we don't have the luxury of time to do that anymore (and i guess, there never will be) that is why aside from Friday night gimiks we also plan (a very looooong planning indeed- which entails, synchronizing scheds, scheduling office leaves and other what tos?!) a long weekend trip to a place away from the rat-race in Makati (Lheng & I) or Manila (Pau & Hapi), in hope that we can find solace and seek comfort from each other -while ranting our frustrations and sharing our goals and being excited and glad on each other's achievements and accomplishments.

Gosh, I am just so freakin' melodramatic.. I think I can write a tear-jerking script- but then again maybe not!


PS: I just came from our weekend getaway at Hapi's place in Antipolo. We actually have the gal to swim and defy typhoon Egay's wrath.


*No Egay! you can't stop us! Rain or shine if our mind is set in doing it.. do it we will! haha... -yeah, we're that stubborn.. or atleast I think, we are ;)


It's fun and we've got tons and tons of photos.. ÜÜÜ

Hows your day going? Are you missing someone dear too?


hugs n kisses




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Dont wanna be the Third Wheel

I am writing here today without any particular idea what I'm gonna write. I just feel the rush of letting the words flow out at the fingertips (uh, literally since im typin the letters-wehehe so corni! Ü)

Anywei, I realized that I must refrain from being overly accommodating to this person since I think as the day progress I'm starting to fall - wrong reasons, wrong time.. but the right person (i guess?!) I tried to ignore the feeling to the point that I almost bottled up my emotions and reactions towards the situation.. it's not at all healthy .. im tired and it is leaving a searing pain and it troubles my heart (lol) Hey! don't wanna be the third wheel here! So guess I'll try straighten this up and hopefully gain some control over my emotions -AGAIN-

*sob.. sob*

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